I just spent the past year writing my first book. It’s a book for survivors of childhood sexual abuse. Since this stems from my own journey of healing and since writing is not my favorite thing to do (not a “word” person, per say) it has been a painful year, to say the least. I have wanted to quit more times than I can count! I have all but pulled my hair out (actually, I did cut my hair a few times if that counts) and have questioned my motives, ability, and purpose all along the way.
This passage of scripture has been my mantra this year as I have battled rejection from publishers, consuming self- doubt and a nagging ache to give up on the whole endeavor! In fact, I have told God several times that I think there are way more capable people to write this book than me, and He should just pick someone else!
It just seems like there has been one obstacle after another! I know the enemy doesn’t want me to finish, much less succeed. Sometimes the battle has been to stay in the fight, more than the fight itself. It has all been just plain exhausting!
As I have had my share of personal pity parties, I’ve been reminded time and again that “Greater is He that is in me than he that is in the world!” 1John 4:4.
So true! Who better to rely on than the One who gave me breath to live? I’ve given the book process all over to Him. It is in His capable hands, and that of a publisher who took an interest in it after I met with them at the #SheSpeaksConference this past July. (I have been waiting on their final “yay” or “nay” for several weeks now and, of course, I am just about to lose my mind with anticipation! 🙂
What about you? What hopes and dreams have you considered giving up on recently? Are you trusting in your own ability or have you placed your trust in the One who made you and has the power to help you see this through?
Don’t give up, friend. Why not give it to God instead? I promise you this; If God has called you to it then He will see you through it!
Lots of love,