A few weeks ago I posted an encouragement not to give up on yourself, others, or God when things are not turning out as you planned. The backstory behind that post is this:
A few weeks ago I wanted to give up on the notion that the book I have been working on, for sexual abuse survivors, over the past two years was ever going to be picked up by a publisher. I had been turned down by two publishers already. Referrals on a few literary agents had turned out to be dead ends, and it was taking months (seven to be exact) to hear back from the last publisher I had submitted to after personally pitching my book idea to them last July, at a writer’s conference.
It seemed like the doors were shut tight on the avenue of traditional publishing. I was beginning to look seriously at non-traditional options. But honestly, that seemed like another daunting mountain to climb and I questioned if I would be getting ahead of God by perusing that avenue on my first book. If I have learned anything in my twenty years of knowing God, I have learned you DO NOT get ahead of him if you want to be in his will!
A part of me questioned if I was meant to actually publish my book or just write it for my own healing journey. That idea seemed depressing to me, because actually I was much happier and at peace with my own past before I ever began to write! In fact, writing the book took me back through a lot of ugly I had already dealt with.
I knew God was pressing me to write the book, but why? Was it for publication or was it for me? I prayed, cried, prayed, questioned, schemed self-publishing, worried, and prayed some more. I finally finished writing the book late December of this past year, and sent the final chapters to the publisher reviewing my manuscript.
Then, I waited.
Waiting is hard. Waiting for something you really want is even harder. Waiting on something you really want, but not sure God wants for you is AGONIZING!
Two months and one week of agony passed. During that time I continued to surrender it to God. It was all up to him. If he wanted it published, he would have to open the right door. I was not going to get ahead of him, no matter how tempting it may have been.
Then, like he always does, God showed up. I found out last week that Kregal Publishing wants to publish my book!! This message of hope for survivors of sexual abuse is not just for me, but for many. Praise God!!
Interestingly enough, they said there where several positives that stood out to them but what really made the difference was the fact my book was finished. I kept thinking of how many times I was tempted to quit; of how many times I doubted God’s leading to write it in the first place. I am so thankful I didn’t give up on it. If it weren’t for all the encouragement he sent my way through family and friends, I very well may have.
The point I am trying to convey is this: If God has called you to it, just do it and don’t give up. He will equip you, encourage you, and lead you exactly where he wants you to go. It will happen in his timing, and in his way, and it will be exactly as it should be.
Be encouraged today, friend. Whatever you are doing in response to God’s urging, don’t give up on it. Keep moving forward to the finish. You will be so glad you did!
In His love,